Of crooked streets & snow

Some memories leave a mark, bundled with moments with an undying spark

That every time you click rewind. You just sit back and smile.

Some people make you feel so loved, their ways not just words

You just can’t leave the feeling behind that you haven’t yet gone half the mile.

Some bonds are forever, meant to nurture and for keeps

Just a tear there and a smile here, not enough with their passing remarks and deed

But then everytime and day, when you jump closer to the now of things

Missing then is part of the loving now, memories bottled forever.

Pic - Taken Dec'10 Cincinnati

Just when Are you?

Just when the world is doing the usual, Are you fighting with yourself for a change ! Drastically

Just when the usual is making them all happy, Are you pushing back all those deals! Casually

Just when they are sealing it off, Are you eroding all the past layers! Clearly

Just when they are all piling cash, Are you looking at ways to clear bank accounts! Comfortably

Just when the clocks ticking,  Are you looking at making the circumference bigger! Insanely

Just when they are working at falling in love, Are you looking at ways to fall out of it all! Passively

Just when they are all gung-ho about Diwali, Are you waiting to celebrate your first Haloween! Weirdly

I Am , Are you?

Pic- A coffee shop in a quaint hill station around Bangalore. Sept,10

Stand Out

Do whatever , But Do like noone has ever done before

Reach wherever, But be sure you can get back to the shore

Love forever  , and never leave that one asking for more

Die whenever , but thank life for what  it had in store

Hurt if ever,  but then make sure you can heal the soul

Lose however,  but fight till you find your goal.


My Photo- City of Bath , UK

Pre and post nothing Happiness Syndrome

Is there something like a happy moodswing?
After prolonged days of being morose and bored , dying for a change, where your boss reminds you of Dogbert , when your work life starts to suck, when you are swearing on the men you don’t want to be with and running behind the state you actually want . This state shocks me. Makes me think what is that I am doing right. So I could hold on to this forever.

After those emotional controls hanging from your ceiling fan making your head go round and round strangulating your minds independence.
There are these days when you have happy mood swings. When you are in the state of loving all that surrounds you. Where everything means a thing. Where you live in the ‘now’ of affairs and not ‘later’.


That’s when you realize that these are days when your are actually doing things for yourself. You are not knocking things down for later. You are not avoiding your own self. You are not being that self depressed lazy butt. You are not judgemental about people who love you. You are not holding back. You are just settled.

and P.S Mr. Clooney my love, why does one even need a back pack when one has no baggage to carry.
Pic - April'10 , Bangalore

Les pluies de l'été

The thirsty drops of rain tingling onto my head,

Barren thoughts of joy that it seems to have bred .

Its the misty cloud and the virgin vapours insight ,

Its not me that seems to have indulged in this fight.

I lift up my cramped self to walk in the cool breeze ,

Thanks to the coy clouds that ease out all the crease.

Its not me to be blamed for I have no tempest needs,

Its the rain that has caressed and dampened all the seeds..

photo: London, April '09

Maladies Mentales

ü- Stuck in the middle !! And so life moves on, getting closer to the best,( ah ! you must be kidding ).Our process analysis of any situation tells us we are moving towards the worse. downside - Lifes circle getting smaller , narrower set of friends and best fits. Upside- we are getting better at coping up with things that bring change. In a hell of a manner everytime, but atleast you are reaching points when you can uproot yourself , correcting pendulum like behaviour devoid of new risks/returns. Switching on and off is better than hibernating mode each time.

ü- Sans Change!! Personalities definitely change and evolve, you are what you have chosen you want to be with no external virus attacks, What my image is and what I want to represent is our forte, though I still do not know what works best for me, changes over time (that’s fine), but I do know that I can keep experimenting till the time I have to stop and walk away with a dab of confidence and a tint of arrogance in MY chosen direction .

ü- Questioning at x per hr!! Well we all do that a zillion times a day,

" Where is it going? Why did he call me, Why did he not call me, Will he do what he says, does he say what he does ?, Why did not she and why don’t they,What do they think, How do I get out of this now, Do I really need to say that, When will I actually buy that car, Does that dress make me look fatter, Have I got a tummy which is more than the one I got last time I went home. Is that even a worry for her, that she sounds so worried. Look at the mess he created, why did I ever get so fast into that, it is so unreal, What is that they are actually doing ? Stop! Should I make a full stop now it’s going way overboard."

Breathe ! We keep punching questions that keep punchering our mind over a typical span of a humans week, now sit back and ponder over the weekend that all those futile questions on which no action was taken , if not asked would have left no difference in our state of being and the way we spent our friday nights or monday mornings.

ü- Keep the pin labels away!! We still would have laughed and cried and ate the same amount of junk courses, because at not one point of life is life so certain. Yet we try to pin it to any kind of surety sometimes to the extent that we base our decisions on others graphs. Keep the pin boxes away, they only pinch and poke you.

ü- Repulsion sydnrome!! You will see that each time you cross a line you will want to push back. But then you will still lie in the same parallels of momentary pleasures . It’s like a constant given in any equation over a period of time even though the variables keep multiplying.

ü- Expectation is the ghost!! Another common ailment is over expectations, the fact where you decide how you should be treated while you slip control from the way you've got to treat yourself. Its got nothing to do with them or you, it is just happening because it ought to happen, all you need to do is disassociate from the conflicts and when it makes less than incomplete sense and the timing is right you will know what to do next.

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