black and white idiosyncrasies..

The dualities of life , I will talk to you about this probably in a completely meaningless fashion.

For me they start with the colour black and white, yes thats what catches my eye the most for quite sometime now and maybe that is beacuse of the duality it throws out together, its comforting to my eyes. Dont we all love to live in this state of mind, a little bit of both the worlds.
I wanted to read the colour black , so i started with wikipedia here is what it gave me:)
Some blah blah..

Black is a multi-dimensional color that can mean classic or new.

• It has an ominous characteristic, symbolizing death. Particularly Western cultures use black for funerals.
• It has an air of intelligence (graduation robes), marked with rebellion (the bad guy), shrouded in mystery (space).
• Black’s evil symbolism, complements the good in the world.

black symbolises - modernity, power, sophistication, formality, elegance, wealth, mystery, style, evil, death in Western cultures, fear, seriousness, conventionality, rebellion, anarchism, unity, sorrow, life, rebirth in ancient Egypt , professionalism's and slimming quality in fashion.

Now Some of my scientific dervations of the colour : There are two school of thoughts :the colour theory and the light theory (i think ) - a little bit of a background on both .

Black is not a colour but the absence of colour ,where there are no photons of light.
White is a colour according to the additive colour theory of light, ie to say that when all colours emitted as light come together like the sunlight,what is emitted is white light.
The other theory says :
Black is a colour because if u combine the three primary colours you will get a shade of black or something close to that, however if you do a similar mixing of colours you will never be able to get white, hence white is not a colour as it cannot be derived from its very or any source.

Existence of colour also depends on sight... ehh... imagine if we could either see white or black or none or both and still not be able to differentiate the two.

Now can u decipher thoughts (unless you have an innate ability to read minds) positive or negative with the signs and conscious and unconscious signals of the brain, unless expressed you cant , hence duality creeps in any kind of expression , emotion, every thing you say or do can be interpreted in black and white. Yes a certain amount of grey too and thats open for an ongoing debate..

Let me tell you more of what is happening around.. things seem big as these are times of recession, of not only the economy but of interest and motivation . I am happy and it makes quite a few people around me happy.. and thats the only thing in life that has no duality at the moment..

I am also learning the nuances of business and i know I have a long way to go and many more things will inspire me on the way, the people around me, i do not how i am different from them but yes i can truly differentiate how one set of them is different from the other, their priorities are without any dualities, their life is free of falling in the middle of things, they are not in any conundrum of what they really want, they know where to get and how, these questions which we all ask ourselves are so full of double thoughts.

We want this and we want that as well, what sounds best professionally is not our best personal aim, they are always at tangents, we want to live dual and parallel lives to be able to be truly happy, we want work but then we dont want to work hard enough, we want money but we also do not want that we end up with only and too much of it, we want the cute person around to approach us, but we also do not want that we have to succumb to his charm and be dictated by it, we want to get slender each day but we also do not want to give up the briyani around the corner or the ice creamed coffee on every turn..

But lucky are those for whom the dual worlds come together.. one by virtue of my age and state of mind:- when you have the thing which loves and holds you together and leaves you independant at the same time..this is the ideal state of duality for me;)

If you were to ask me over a tete a tete.. Where do i see myself two years from now? i'd be zapped.. blank in a state of nothingness...
As after all why should i live again with the burden of duality, simply enough we will either be doing less than or more than what we want . We would be in a single state of mind of which is good or bad, content or discontent. This state of mind cannot be predicted sitting now in the quiteness of our lifes. So why live the moment with such a baggage, and that is why i havnt believed in planning my future. There is only a course of action for present and not the future, there is only one way and that is doing the thing that gives each day a purpose, could be small thank you note, a follow up call, a cup of capucinno , a look of admiration , a right note on your guitar or a small recognition that the job is done the way it ought to...

Unwinding @ a philosophical hour

Are We caught in this 'usualness of things' .. That we live Each moment thinking
that our road To perdition does not end here Or even worse its waiting To
start..We move On the same path every sunny day taking each day picking the
little stones that come our way. We lose each little bit fo life that keeps
flowing within us in that weight. We forget that the power house that pumps life
was'nt to climb the rock or burn the breath ..it was for something, something that
we all vcould lose without any fear of loosing it and so you know the biggest
fear that i see when i open my eyes this day is what if one day i start living
in the usualness of things.. that even a state of denial seems seemingly
different to me... that i wake up each day thinking that my bit of it is over and
that i have no hand in making the world spin.. that i am in consequential, that
i am incapable of making a difference in anyone's life, that i cant look into his
eyes and say that how much it means to me, that i keep moving on with no hope of
ever coming back to the things that belong to me, that language which gave
defination to every piece of emotion seems like and incongruent string on paper,
that i have nothing more left to hear that seems like music to me, that i look
outside the window and i have nothing to see and breathe, that everything that
touches me feels like water and dosnt flow through my eyes.. to all the years
that i have lived ,today seems taht he is smiling back to me that i feel that
yes maybe i have lived for this and will go on living for the same, while i
cross thae path of many taking them along giving them one smalll reason to
remember what it meant to ahve them by my side, to have them call my name in
their time of sorrow, to have me hold them and whisper to them what could bring
that spark in their eyes, that glow that seems brighter than light that ray that
cuts through all that that comes in between coz it isnt that from where it all
started but it is'nt where i shall end END....

One full circle..

The background : [ok some one someday just happen to tell me that, that someone in general feels a little uncomfortable if that some one stays for a long time at some place.. well that simple statement which by grapevine happened to reach me on time killing chat session.. but yes it did trigger a thought...and i got something to write on the the theme which usually for me comes before the body of the blog...]

And i think i can now answer a simple question which our Mr Galileo, Copernicus, Magellan and the likes struggled to prove ---
And that was that the earth was Round and not Square..
Well all they forgot to say that life moves in circles too..
My assumption which I’l try to fit it into reality lets see how...
Even this blog has moved one full circle and that you will understand if you happen to be regular here and not necessarily by powers of geometrical understanding...
my educational career is coming to halt(as of now) and by that i mean classroom education. because Im growing old and I don’t have much time in hand..(well That also become a worry these days...)
Coz i have started viewing life in time spans of not less than 2..3..4..5 years..
Well i guess that’s how its going to be from now...let me quote a few not so hypothetical situations... you’ll be able to relate better..

1) Hanging on to your place of work for atleast the next 2- 3yrs obv there’s no limit to the maximum!!
Your next raise/appraisal/promotion/transfer/business person of the year award..:)
2) Paying of all kinds of loans in next three four five years years. and for me those include things which you are greedy for but don’t really have the money to pay at the moment..
3)Tying the scary (nuptial) knot after at least four five ten years:
4)Other things which as of now seem irritatingly irrelevant and impossible but will certainly come :P
5) Saving money for later later in life(10- 20% agreement on that)... investments shorter ,long term ,medium term, life term, Health, kids( ughh) education, marriage, death, rebirth... n blah blah...(hence forth the circles will be longer i guess)
6) And yes to feel what I feel here watch the friends episode ‘when they all turn thirty’…lol well well I am not that old.. but can sum how experience the pain coming…L

Guess that’s what they call broadening of our horizons is it..(Ouchh) it hurts already.. I don’t know how pleasant it will be... but yes have to wait and watch....and Yes maybe i like it...all that too will pass concentrically…another Chakkar begins…journey i mean..:)